Living
Seeing In Latency
I take a TON of pictures. I went to Calgary recently to spend Canadian Thanksgiving with my family of friends and I took over 350 pictures. Thank god I don’t have to pay for developing 10 rolls of film. I take the pictures so I can see the details of a scene later on. So […]
Gripper
If you’ve been reading I am a bit bitter. Grip Grip Grip. Being off work for so long over eight months takes its toll. I’m bitter that I couldn’t find a gig where I was. I’m bitter since it felt that because of the market and my disability I wasn’t getting jobs. I’m bitter I […]
Lookin Good Dude!!
I’ve been frustrated with the vernacular and the meaning of the words your handsome or you look good. It doesn’t really mean anything to me. My identity my physical identity is different. I can’t see my body. My physicalness is defined for me in feeling not sight. My perception of myself is based on feeling […]
Ignoramus Swine
I was in the coffee shop the other day used the toilet and on the way out walked past someone telling a blind joke. Some nonsense about a supposed drunk driver who turned out to be blind. I was offended. Humor is an interesting nemonic. It can inform teach reduce stress or injure. I too […]
Death Till Us Part
I have come to appreciate the dramatic differences in my culture of blindness and the sighted world. The reference points the words the subtlety is very different. The denotations might be the same or similar but the connotations are very different. For instance what is beauty? To a sighted person it may be a physical […]
Oh Canada
I know have an opinion on where it is best to be disabled. I know from recent experiences that discrimination legislation in Canada particularly western Canada is still in flux. What that means is that your experience for accommodation and protection under the law if you have a disability will vary. From my experience in […]
Embarassed
I get crazy embarrassed when I mess up because of my vision. It really has an impact on me. When I make a “visual” error It affects my self esteem my intelligence everything. I turn to mush. I punish myself. I shouldn’t but I do. I have to generally stop what I’m doing reset and […]
Strabismus Surgery Update
Its been a few weeks now since my surgery, I feel great. The pain was significantly less than I had expected I have been pleasantly surprised. I’m trying to get glasses post surgery since that’s how this whole journey started. Glasses are a separate adventure. The surgery went great. My post surgical appointment was flawless. […]
I’m Not Doing This to Hurt You
There was an article on CNN today about transgender issues. The person in the picture was holding up a sign that stated “I’m Not Doing This to Hurt You”. I have often in my life felt this way. Especially in my family of origin but also with others. I’m not this way I didn’t chose […]
Family Devestated
I am working on a social model for acceptance of disability, integration, impact on social groups such as families, etc. In the thinking I’m doing I look at my own family experience. Disability has devastated my family experience. I know from my life experience that a lot of families are a miss mash mess but […]
