So This is Love
Well its only taken two of my four lifetimes to figure out what love is. Better late than never. I didn’t realize until today that when my life mentor Wendy Lady was teaching me about patience she was teaching me about so many other things. I didn’t realize that one word could lead to so many other words.
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When you don’t think your worthy of something or that you will never experience something it becomes very hard to imagine what that thing really is. With my disability I’ve always wondered who’d want me?
I love movies. They give me words and phrases that I can pull of my hat at the right moment to add color to a conversation, and people thought I was so smart. One of my favorite movies “Good Will Hunting” has given me inspiration for my definition of love. A scene where Will and Sean are establishing their counseling relationship provided me with some very insightful input into my definition.
Sean: …If I ask you about women, you’d probably give me a syllabus about your personal favorites. You may have even been laid a few times. But you can’t tell me what it feels like to wake up next to a woman and feel truly happy. … .. I’d ask you about love, you’d probably quote me a sonnet. But you’ve never looked at a woman and been totally vulnerable. Known someone that could level you with her eyes, feeling like God put an angel on earth just for you. Who could rescue you from the depths of hell. And you wouldn’t know what it’s like to be her angel, to have that love for her, be there forever, through anything …You don’t know about real loss, ’cause it only occurs when you’ve loved something more than you love yourself. And I doubt you’ve ever dared to love anybody that much….
I have only felt the feeling three times in my life. Where one minute I was one person and the next minute I am now a totally different person. Where my priorities my focus my energy have changed. To love someone completely and forever; to be totally happy and totally vulnerable; To know that they are an angel sent for you, and to know that you are their angel. One was when my son was born. Now I am a parent. The second was when my daughter was born. Now I’m a parent AGAIN!! The third time was the first time I’ve experienced real love. I cry when I look into her eyes and see the light. It’s very new but I’ll update you. Maybe.
When you don’t think your worthy of something or that you will never experience something it becomes very hard to imagine what that thing really is. With my disability I’ve always wondered who’d want me?
I love movies. They give me words and phrases that I can pull of my hat at the right moment to add color to a conversation, and people thought I was so smart. One of my favorite movies “Good Will Hunting” has given me inspiration for my definition of love. A scene where Will and Sean are establishing their counseling relationship provided me with some very insightful input into my definition.
Sean: …If I ask you about women, you’d probably give me a syllabus about your personal favorites. You may have even been laid a few times. But you can’t tell me what it feels like to wake up next to a woman and feel truly happy. … .. I’d ask you about love, you’d probably quote me a sonnet. But you’ve never looked at a woman and been totally vulnerable. Known someone that could level you with her eyes, feeling like God put an angel on earth just for you. Who could rescue you from the depths of hell. And you wouldn’t know what it’s like to be her angel, to have that love for her, be there forever, through anything …You don’t know about real loss, ’cause it only occurs when you’ve loved something more than you love yourself. And I doubt you’ve ever dared to love anybody that much….
I have only felt the feeling three times in my life. Where one minute I was one person and the next minute I am now a totally different person. Where my priorities my focus my energy have changed. To love someone completely and forever; to be totally happy and totally vulnerable; To know that they are an angel sent for you, and to know that you are their angel. One was when my son was born. Now I am a parent. The second was when my daughter was born. Now I’m a parent AGAIN!! The third time was the first time I’ve experienced real love. I cry when I look into her eyes and see the light. It’s very new but I’ll update you. Maybe.
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