The Jab

I passionately hate needles, I’ve grown and do better as I’ve aged but I really dislike having to get a jab. I’ve passed out and freaked out in the past, so it is amazing to me that I am beyond excited to get vaccinated against COVID 19.
The pandemic has been very hard. My orientation and mobility with social distancing has been invalidated. I’ve been working on creating new disciplines for mobility but I’m no where close to pre-pandemic Independence.

A HUGE fear has been getting COVID. Being carted off in an ambulance or dropped off at the hospital to never see my wife or the world again. Dying alone has been my biggest fear, or not being able to say goodbye in person. Seeing my father pass with half a dozen phones on his dying body with a number of people connected wasn’t human. Saying goodbye over a smart phone is not on my bucket list.

Disability has never been factored in, from what I’ve seen, in the vaccine deployment. I imagine that as a group we are not super spreaders.

It is absolutely bizarre to me that I’m giddy about getting, “the JAB”! My energy is in my opinion based on orientation and mobility being easier. I can’t assume that anything will go back to pre-pandemic. The pandemic has changed the world forever. More importantly I think its the prospect or isolation of being infected and isolated because of COVID. Being able to say goodbye in person at the end has importance to me as well.

Disability has no significant impact her other than isolation but I am giddy to get Jabbed. I think its all about fear.