I Can’t Let Go

Moving back to Calgary has been surreal. From the growth of the city to seeing my favorite waitress at 1886 cafe to my personal growth and growth of those I’ve called friends and family. I am still known and known in a good way which I am thankful for but so much has changed, a lot of the change is in me.

I have lagged connecting with my family of origin and my extended family of origin. I am bitter I am angry. Not a good place to be. I have energy and emotion about the denial the lying the conspiracy of silence the collusion the rejection of the disability that runs in our family. Its a don’t talk about it and it will go away. Perhaps now that I’m talking about the disability and have been no one wants to talk to me. But I can’t help but feel bitter and angry at the lot of them for the effects not discussing the disability have had on me. I guess I’m not an adult yet, in some ways thank god. I know I’ll get over it.

As I build a model for me based on what I can do that isn’t so affected by the things I can’t do I will get over my feelings. Its a process. Talk the talk and walk the walk.

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About the Author:

Kyle has ocular albinism and has been legally blind since birth. Kyle leads a very active live and is besides his professional career involved in many projects for persons who are different.

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