By June 15, 2013 Read More →

Pain

I would not wish pain on anyone.    I found out when my ankle was rebuilt that I have crushed vertebra L4 and L5 and messed up the disk between them.   I am relived that now I have understanding of the pain and illness I have experience but have not been able to resolve for most of my life.  However I now have to manage the pain in my back as well as the pain of my other disability with my eyes.    Back pain is not only debilitating it is disabling.   The pain is at times so very bad that I can’t think and I cry until I can get some relief.

Pain relief for my eyes comes in many forms: using a larger monitor, using reading glasses, using glare filters, using a visual aid, closing my eyes, sleeping, taking a bath, others.    However none of these things provides any relief for me and my back.
Having had to move recently to find a job I have had to do many things that are strictly taboo when trying to manage a back injury.     First and foremost I have lifted and moved boxes.    This activity alone is one of the worst things you can do with a back injury.   Now with my back inflamed and exasperated I am in a brutal phase of pain management.
On one hand thank god I am now in Canada and Alberta and have some sort of medical coverage.  If I were still in the US I’d be in dire straights until I could get medical insurance or outright pay for the procedure.    On the other hand even though I have insurance in Alberta Canada I now have to wait a LONG time for the procedure that will help me out.
Pain management is medication nasty nasty medication and the heating pad.   If I don’t manage the pain I can’t walk work or do anything its totally debilitating.    Effectively now I have two disabilities.
I am getting a shot this week that might help, if it doesn’t I’m going to go for surgery.     We’ll see how it goes.
It just goes to show that all of us.   Even you sighted types that are reading my blog, will be disabled at some point.     You will with age or illness you will be disabled.    Consider yourself a Temporarily Able Bodied Person, “TAB”.  Good luck with that.    I hope others will be kinder to you than most of you have been to me.

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