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Alberta Bound

Alberta Bound

Those words have been given new meaning for me since I’ve moved back. I can’t believe how much things change and how much I’ve changed as an individual. The culture here is very much against open discussion on anything. They all appear to be homophobic and afraid of anything that is not the “norm”. There […]

I Believe

I Believe

I have faith and I am a very spiritual person. Organized religion is very hard for me.    Having lived with people who look at me and my disability with the moral model, I’ve sinned or my parents have sinned.  Its very hard to believe in a system of spirituality that condones and practices intolerance.     To […]

Understanding Nystagmus

Understanding Nystagmus

Understanding Nystagmus Richard L. Windsor, O.D., F.A.A.O. Laura K. Windsor, O.D., F.A.A.O. Published in Vision Enhancement Journal Nystagmus is an involuntary rhythmic shaking or wobbling of the eyes. The term nystagmus is derived from the Greek word, “nmstagmos”, which was used to describe the wobbly head movements of a sleepy or inebriated individual. Nystagmus has […]

60 Degrees West & 15 Degrees North

60 Degrees West & 15 Degrees North

These are the coordinates to my favorite beach. Not really they are the misalignments of my eyes. Recently I had this really cool eye appointment at the hospital. My eyes are so misaligned currently they can refract me for new glasses. My options are, surgery. I’ve had Strabismus surgery before, the most single painful incident […]

Curiosity and Ignorance

Curiosity and Ignorance

I believe its human nature to be curios about each others story. What do they do? Why do they…? Often when I’m out and about I look at a home and wonder what is the story of the people that live there. Its easy to imagine on a cold wintery night on the highway seeing […]

Fear

Fear

I am having Strabismus surgery in March, and I’m afraid. When I wrote about the eye appointment to measure my eye alignment, misalignment, angles I wasn’t totally honest.   It was a very cool appointment but it hurt and it hurt a lot.  I had the prospect of repeating the appointment and all the tests but thankfully […]

PhotoVoice

PhotoVoice

I was surfing the news on the internet the other day and came across the following news article on the BBC news website. http://news.bbc.co.uk/2/hi/uk_news/magazine/8466714.stm There is an organization “Photovice” out of the UK that gives blind and legally blind cameras and teaches them how to take pictures. Some of these pictures are amazing!!! http://www.photovoice.org/ I […]

BlindMan Update

BlindMan Update

I’m still here. I’ve realized with age and experience that I have a definite throughput of life or there are so many things I can do at once. It’s been a few weeks since I’ve written a post a lot has happened.   I’ve changed jobs.  Thank goodness.  Never take a job where they are hiring […]

Alberta Health Care

Alberta Health Care

I’m spoiled, I’m concerned, I’m surprised. During my life in Canada and the US with my eye condition I’ve enjoyed the attention of an Ophthalmologist. Even for mundane things like new glasses. I’ve just moved back to Calgary, Alberta and the health care system here is in a state. A state of what I’m not […]

Podcasting

Podcasting

I found out a short while ago that my podcasts have an audience.  I’ve struggled with podcasting as I write the blog posts first.    I’ve been rightly so accused of sounding like I’m reading the blog posts.  I am.    I am still working on the performance of the written blog post. The one tip I […]

Optometrist

Optometrist

Recently I’ve had to find an optometrist to refract me for new glasses. Fine. I tried my ophthalmologist no luck. I called my surgeon, the one who did my strabismus surgery, he maintains a list of optometrists. I tired one. I have to admit I was very leery but all in all the optometrist turned […]

BlindManCan Audiances

BlindManCan Audiances

I have always been interested in who my audience actually is. I’m sure there is someone looking to steal my identity, good think I’m broke. I’m sure there are hackers that are piggy backing on the services I use to host this blog, I’m sure there are a few out there to monitor, stalk, and […]

LRT

LRT

In Calgary they have a light rail transit system dubbed the “LRT”, growing up here I’ve seen the LRT system from its genesis to its current and planned state. Its not a bad system gets you around about fairly effectively. My days when I’m on my own working or shopping or doing whatever require public […]

Escaped

Escaped

When I walk down the street most days I feel like an escape.   I should be locked up.  I should be in the shadows.  I should be kept away.  I am unclean.  I am a leaper.  I may be contagious.  Don’t let your children come near me.   Don’t touch me the blindness will rub off.  […]

Change of Pace

Change of Pace

When I’m doing the blog I often worry about accessibility. I don’t follow the WC3 guidelines I should but I haven’t got a clue technically on how to do it. I have a tool I use on the Mac and that’s how technical I want to get with the web publishing. I have considered the […]

Angry

Angry

To be disabled, different, apart, marginalized, is frustration. Frustrated at the things that you can and can’t do, the person you might want to be, the job you might want to have, the mate you think you might want. The things that take longer or are impossible. Fear of being rejected, left behind, abandoned, or […]

M’s & N’s

M’s & N’s

I’ve had colleagues at work one at Microsoft and one at my current gig who can’t get their head wrapped around me. In the Microsoft case it eventually cost me my job. Not being what is expected will likely cost me my current job as well. Being blind you can’t work in ways that sighted […]

Liar Liar

Liar Liar

Enabler!! What a terrible term. I learned this term in my recovery, my coming out blind. I read a lot of different literature in my recovery one of them was the “Big Blue” book from alcoholics anonymous. I went to a couple of AA meetings and Al anon, meetings, an organization for those who’s lives […]

I Can’t Remember

I Can’t Remember

Three words that reverberate through time and space. I can’t remember. I have recently become a big fan of Sandra Bulllock, especially her movies “28 Days” and more recently “The Blind Side”. In the movie “The Blind Side”. The school principle, having learned from the police that someone identified as Michael’s father has died, asks […]

Why Do I Have to Accomidate You?

Why Do I Have to Accomidate You?

Its amazing to me how many people haven’t got a clue what a white cane is!!! Its amazing to me that no matter if your carrying a white cane and your recognized as blind people will not accommodate you!!! Then there are the forms of life that have the stupidity to judge you “not disabled […]

Battery Powered

Battery Powered

I realized yesterday with a thud how reliant I am on technology to get through the day. I was attending a conference one of the best I’ve ever attended. My Jordy’s battery died back to the monocular. I’ve used a Jordy for a number of years now and I think its time to replace the […]

Its Monday and Everybody Works on Monday

Its Monday and Everybody Works on Monday

Have you ever seen the movie “Dave”? I still tear up when I watch it. In my career I’ve looked for and found new jobs I think fifteen or so times. I’ve learned a lot about networking and job searching. Many compliment me on my job searching abilities. There are times when finding the job […]

They Didn’t Even Know

They Didn’t Even Know

I was dumb struck recently. I was visiting some cousins of mine in Edmonton. They had absolutely no idea I couldn’t see them. They knew I was blind but they had no idea to the impact of my blindness. My cousin asked why I didn’t talk to their child. I had to respond I can’t […]

I Should Have Known

I Should Have Known

I connected with a cousin of mine the other day. During the conversation of catching up we touching on my disability. She knew I was blind, but not what that meant or what it was called. I should have known. I’ve spent so much time lately being angry and frustrated at my family of origin […]

Donations?

Donations?

As you may have notice there have been some changes at www.blindmancan.comrecently. A Facebook mirror of the blog has been setup with a direct link to Twitter and to Linked-In. Readership is up over 400%. Thanks for your interest!!!! No one has asked yet but I thought I’d better be proactive and address this “donate” button […]

Blog Posts’s

Blog Posts’s

You may ask. Well you haven’t but just in case you ask. How long does it take to write a blog post? There is no single answer to this question. Learning to write becoming a writer, yes I know, my writing still sucks. You have to admit its getting better though. Becoming a writer carrying […]

Poverty / Prosperity

Poverty / Prosperity

I was hypothesizing about growing up in poverty, disabled, blind. I grew up in Canada. Generally the poverty levels here are better than in other parts of the world but indeed poverty exists here as well. I’ve done some reading and research and have had several conversations about poverty. I am no expert on poverty. […]

Technical Accomidation

Technical Accomidation

I’m struggling with the issue of technical accommodation, who’s responsibility is it, who pays, and who gets to keep the gear?. As a disabled person there are pieces of technology that make many things in my day and my personal and professional life possible. I’m going to publish a picture of myself showing the technology […]

In The Beginning

In The Beginning

I am starting this BLOG and Podcast to share my experience with blindness. I am legally blind and have been since birth. I have a congenital eye condition called Ocular Albinism. Many have been interested and inspired by my story over the years. So much so I considered writing a book to share my story…. In The Beginning […]

Driven To Achieve

Driven To Achieve

People look in awe at my career.   I am in the top 5% of wage earners in North America.   I’ve often had this monkey on my back about not having a degree.  A job coach once said to me.  Will the degree help you earn more money?  My answer has been no I already make […]

Blind Jokes

Blind Jokes

I love humor and more often than not I need to laugh at myself.    I’ve spent a lot of time thinking about the subject of blind jokes.  Especially in light of the movie Blindness, I know the move was controversial to some.   I actually read the book “Blindness” that the movie is based on.  I […]

You Can’t Do ThaT

You Can’t Do ThaT

People love to tell us what we can and can’t do.  In some ways unfortunately we are shaped by our environment and those around us.     The people in our lives have a strong influence on what we think of ourselves and what we hold true about our abilities.   Look at a marriage with an abusive […]

You Can’t Do ThaT II

You Can’t Do ThaT II

I love it.  You can’t do that!!  Why not? Because you’re blind!!! I get this often.  You’re not supposed to do that.  Here let me do that for you.  It’s amazing to me other people’s conception of your abilities.     I love blindness as a metaphor because blindness is used to describe so many “can’t do” […]

In Your Eyes

In Your Eyes

I see the world and am provided rich experiences through the eyes of others.    I love people in general.  I believe everyone has something to teach and everyone provides a unique view of the world and the experiences in it. In Your Eye’s Podcast When I am out and about I love to go with […]

Human Perception

Human Perception

I have been researching ways to describe scientifically the human envelope of perception.   I’ve given up.  I’ve looked in books on the internet talked to doctors etc.  No luck… On the earth in the universe we live in there are a range of signals out there some we are aware of and others we are […]

Public Perception

Public Perception

I’ve being pondering the issue of public perception of blind people.   I have often wondered why a blind person using a guide dog is perceived in a better light then a blind person using a white cane.   The answer embarrassingly enough is obvious.   Who would you feel better about a person with a well behaved […]

What is Normal?

What is Normal?

I work in the Information Technology industry and have designed and implemented a number of large systems supporting global requirements.    Each system is different.  Each system has its own unique way of being measured and behaving.    Each system was designed for a different set of business reasons in different market or industry segments.    Each system […]

Growing Up Blind

Growing Up Blind

I read this little book. More of a pamphlet really on blind children and their development. I was going to the University of Alberta at the time, trying to study computer science. Oh Well. Had these great libraries I was curious so I looked. The book was very cool and described some behaviors that I […]

SNL

SNL

The folks at Saturday Night Live are stupid. Humor and comedy is generally best at someone else’s expense but. Generally there are limits of good taste. I think these limits were passed. I can sluff off a blind joke made to me privately or in public, to a point. There is a point where its […]

How Do I Know Its You?

How Do I Know Its You?

Do you really want to know how I identify people? Well, O.K. We’ll go through each one of the senses and I’ll let you know things that help me to know who you are. Smell. This is a big one. I remember how someone smells and have found people from the wafting of their perfume. […]

I Hate Being Blind

I Hate Being Blind

There are days I just can’t take it anymore. Knowing how differently I view the world How different I think How different my experiences are. How different I am. I hate it. I want to belong I want to fit in I want occasionally to be invisible I want to be able to do the […]

What Makes It Work

What Makes It Work

I have had to find my own definition of who Kyle is and living with being blind. I couldn’t be a typical “man”. Male models don’t account for variance or difference or individuality. I couldn’t go and be the macho oil field rough neck drinking beer and chasing woman. Gross exaggeration my apologies but I […]

You Can’t Do ThaT III

You Can’t Do ThaT III

Our families of birth where we grow up and who we choose to call our family have a big impact on us. In the past I’ve had to manage issues with my families by moving away from them. Far away. You Can’t Do ThaT III Podcast There are expectations of roles and responsibilities and legacy. […]

Blind Man Crap!!!

Blind Man Crap!!!

People want to know why on earth I write about so many things that don’t have anything to do with blindness. Why do you talk about divorce and job hunting and work and social issues. I’ll tell you. I as a blind person perceive and see the world differently than people that fit into the […]

I Can’t See You!!!

I Can’t See You!!!

I am as bad as a two year old. I’m still stuck in the mindset that if I can’t see you you can’t possibly see me. Not true according to my companions. But I really don’t understand what “sighted” people can and cannot see. For me if I can’t see you I must be in […]

Take Care of YOU!!!

Take Care of YOU!!!

My experience with disability has been traumatic. The issues of Rejection Isolation and Self Esteem have been devastating during my lifetime. I have made many wrong decisions and have invested in relationships and pursued careers that have not fed me. Worse these decisions have impacted me greatly as a person. My biggest sin is my […]

Is Your Cowboy Hat Too Tight?

Is Your Cowboy Hat Too Tight?

I’ve been picking on Calgary in my writing recently, its hard returning home to find that home is no longer home and discover how much you’ve changed as well. I’m no longer a Calgarian but I am a Calgarian in the best sense of the word, I am friendly and helpful. There used to be […]

How My Ocular Albinism Works

How My Ocular Albinism Works

This is what I know about the form of Ocular Albinism that is present in my family. The gene has travelled through a few family names so I won’t list them here. Also our form of Albinism is odd as the form is common in India but no where else. It appears my family carries […]

Forgive

Forgive

Upon returning to Calgary I joined the “Calgary Chamber of Commerce” to support my reintroduction to the city and networking. Honestly as well its a clean safe place to go where the bathrooms don’t smell the people are friendly and the coffee doesn’t suck. The chamber runs some networking sessions for those of us doing […]

Finding Your Voive

Finding Your Voive

I received an email yesterday from an old friend of mine. This friend is very important to me as they have waled with me through many valleys of death. They have shown me compassion and hope when there was no on e else there. Even took me for a burger in a red convertible to […]