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Communication & Imagination

Communication & Imagination

  Living with Ocular Albinism I’ve always tried to define the word accommodation?   My definition for accommodation recently changed.   I’m an Information Technology professional; naturally my definition of accommodation has revolved around technology.   Here are the solutions I’ve found to the problems I face with Ocular Albinism.   Light Sensitivity My irises are translucent so […]

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Leap of Faith

Leap of Faith

  I’ve always wanted to make my living from my vocal talent.    Seriously I can sing and sing very well.  I’m not an exceptional talent with the ability to write and play another instrument, but I can really sing.     I’ve wanted to for about twenty years record a number of albums.    I sing a number […]

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Support Systems

Support Systems

As the Beach Boys put it, “I Get Around!!”. It’s all about gettin around. If you’re blind, simply put, you need to be the easiest date at the prom. It’s all about logistics. Getting groceries, getting to the doctor, getting the kids, etc. It’s about getting things done. Your support system is everything. Without it […]

Cycling

Cycling

I have cycled all my life. Cycling has always been a reliable way for me to get from point A to point B. I would cycle to the swimming pool or my friends place etc. I am adept at commuting on a bicycle and riding across the city if necessary to get somewhere. I’ve only […]

Driving

Driving

Not being able to drive was the most painful thing in my life.   For the first time in my life there was no way to pretend to be like everyone else no more illusions.  I am legally blind.   I was definitely different.  It didn’t matter how high functioning I was or wasn’t or how well […]

Coming Out Blind

Coming Out Blind

For most of my life I have not lived openly with my blindness. I have hid it and rejoiced in its invisibility. The sad thing with most things you try to hide about yourself the only person I was fooling was myself….   It takes a lot of energy to appear sighted, you’re constantly acting and anticipating the […]

Downhill Skiing

Downhill Skiing

I love to downhill ski.   I grew up in Calgary forty five minutes from Banff and some of the best skiing in the world.     I learned to ski in Calgary at PaskaPoo renamed Canada Olympic Park for the 1988 Calgary Winter Olympics.   Anyway when I was learning to ski we called it Poo Glacier as […]

Raising Children

Raising Children

Parenting is interesting at the best of times. I’ve learned more about parenting styles since my divorce then I did during my marriage. Do I parent differently because I’m blind? In a word yes. Before I had children I was the biggest opinionated arrogant non parent around. Oh those people don’t know how to parent […]

Changing a Diaper

Changing a Diaper

Isn’t it a right of passage for a parent to get painted with urine or plastered with poo while changing a diaper? I think all of us parents have at least one story, well maybe two. I’m not convinced that there is any difference being blind and changing diapers. Its a nasty affair at the […]

Support Systems

Support Systems

As the Beach Boys put it, “I Get Around!!”. It’s all about gettin around. If you’re blind, simply put, you need to be the easiest date at the prom. It’s all about logistics. Getting groceries, getting to the doctor, getting the kids, etc. It’s about getting things done. Your support system is everything. Without it […]

Canned Extrovert

Canned Extrovert

I am a weird mix of introvert and extrovert. People who know me – friends or colleagues – would all call me a “flaming extrovert”. Generally this is true. However; in situations out in the world that I don’t have context for, or situations that are adverse to me seeing, I am a decided introvert. […]

Performing

Performing

I sing. Funny that a voice like a fog horn. A tuned fog horn of course. But still very loud and distinctive. I have done a number of shows over the years with lead roles and chorus roles, for amateur and professional companies. So I really can sing. I even do the national anthems from […]

Realizing My Potential

Realizing My Potential

Have you ever noticed how, depending on you take on things, God or the universe chooses to talk to us? Have you ever noticed how often we are given messages? There are countless songs poems stories etc about how we are spoken to. The subtle the sublime and sometimes the sledgehammer on our stubborn heads, […]

Normal

Normal

None of us like to feel or admit we are different. I look at my choice of careers. I used to shun the musician, masseuse thing as it was stereotypically blind. I now am spending more time singing and want to learn the message trade. I chose a career in information technology “IT”. Why because […]

Angry Blindman

Angry Blindman

CNN has provided much inspiration for my writing recently. There was a headline recently about Obama in the context of the BIG oil spill. A lot of people want Obama to get mad and kick some butt. When your a member of a “group” of people be it a color creed or disability you are […]

Poverty, Disability

Poverty, Disability

I was hypothesizing about growing up in poverty, disabled, blind. I grew up in Canada. Generally the poverty levels here are better than in other parts of the world but indeed poverty exists here as well. I’ve done some reading and research and have had several conversations about poverty. I am no expert on poverty. […]

What is the Human Condition?

What is the Human Condition?

What is the human condition indeed? When you synthesize distill and peel back the layers of life what are you left with? Death. Life will ultimately lead to death. All life comes with the instinct to survive be it the individual, the colony, the species. You could take a step further back and ponder what […]

Activism vs Advocacy

Activism vs Advocacy

Duality, paradox, is how I view my experience with blindness. There are things I can do and can see in some contexts and there are many many things I can’t do or see no matter what. I was challenged in a discussion, am I an advocate,?“a person who speaks or writes in support or defense […]

Self Loathing

Self Loathing

Its easy when your disabled to blame everything that doesn’t go as you had hoped on the disability, every failure, every failed relationship, work related issues, anything. The challenge of a disability is to be totally and completely honest with yourself and those around you. I hate being blind sometimes. Not so much anymore but […]

What Does a Blind Man Look Like

What Does a Blind Man Look Like

This is me. I’m six foot four inches tall, probably about three hundred pounds and blind. I’m told everyday that I don’t look blind. I’m really not what you’d expect too see when you see a blind person. What do you expect when you see a person of disability? What do you expect to see […]

Being Content

Being Content

I started my journey to contentment with a counsellor. The counsellor and I were together for a long time and I miss her desperately. I long for this companion from time to time and her counsel all the time. Thank you to this person for giving me the tools to live, for that gift for […]

Forgiveness

Forgiveness

Upon returning to Calgary I joined the “Calgary Chamber of Commerce” to support my reintroduction to the city and networking. Honestly as well its a clean safe place to go where the bathrooms don’t smell the people are friendly and the coffee doesn’t suck. The chamber runs some networking sessions for those of us doing […]

My Bad Blind Self

My Bad Blind Self

  I started this blog over two years ago, where has the time gone? But it was all about me, me and my bad self and my experience with blindness. I’ve grown as I’ve written both as a person, a disabled person a writer and a commentator on the human condition. I like to think […]

Disability Defined

Disability Defined

My disability has added a second disability, my back. I have a ruptured disk for whatever reason we, the doctors and I, have no clue what happened. The theory is that a cycling accident I had a number of years ago was the catalyst event. It really doesn’t matter, my back condition is painful, debilitatingly […]

Managing Your Disability

Managing Your Disability

Disability requires constant diligence, what’s working what’s not working, what’s changed, what can I do to manage my disability differently. It’s a discipline of constant diligence that will see you through. None of Us Wants be a Burden We all don’t want to be a burden on others. Having others take care of our basic […]

Throw Back

Throw Back

Recently I had the opportunity to work at a client who’s focus is the eradication of blindness. I had some misgivings going into the organization, “the blind man at the blind organization”. Initially the gig was a good fit the people were excellent the mission for the organization seemed sound and I had fun for […]

Prejudice

Prejudice

The remarks, “You are amazing!”, “You are inspiring” are a polite reminder of how brave I am to leave my house. I was on course last week and my eye’s, my mind, my heart was opened to some tragic truths. I am of Metis decent. Thankfully, and I say that with a lack of pride, […]

Predetermined

Predetermined

I had a perspective offered to me the other day. Race has no determining, explaining factor on a persons: intelligence, competence, behaviour, or personal power. The line from an song I learned in catechism “Red and Yellow, Black and White”, “Jesus loves the little children of the world”. One could argue for more colours or […]